oh my god

okay so, for context: theres this guy ive had a crush on for like a few weeks now i think. nothings changed, i still like him a lot but it just feels so weird to like.. feel so strongly attracted towards someone after so long of not experiencing that for ANYONE?? like for the longest time due to that i thought i was aroace. but i guess not cus this man made me feel shit😭😭😭fuuucckk WHATEVER its ok.

i love him so much everytime we talk/call tho i feel so awkward too because I CAN BARELY FUCKING SPEAK like my face gets red and i feel like i can barely say anything. its genuinely humiliating im so bad at talkingggggbbh😣😣😣irs ok atleast he understands