nobody seems to love me the same way that i love them. its strange. i think i put too much effort into stupid little flings.

or maybe i'm just reading too much into things

stepdad got me dr pepper🤤also i went swimming so huzzah!!!! i was sweating my ass off here since it was like in the high 90s but it apparently felt like 102° fh

i cant stop thinking of the guy i like. i cant talk to people about him that much though because theyre either annoyed or jealous. or both,,.,.sigh!

i cant stop my minds pacing and going in circles tjinking about him.. i wanna talk to him   . i wanna see him. i wish i could chat more with him, but i always get so nervous & feel as if that i'd be bothering him if i talked too much with him, or that he'd think i'm weird. 

i hope what i want to happen becomes true, and that this isn't just a stupid useless crush that turns into nothing once more.

i love hole

the band not. not   butt.

theyre so good i love you courtney love i love yoh so much 

her music specifically the live through this album literally embodies me as a person and how i feel day to day as a teenage girl oh my GOD. her singing and the sounds of her songs are just CANDY to me.  favorite band and favorite album of all time, next to jack off jill of course.  i need more riot grl band reccomendations..

i am COVERED from the bottom of my legs to my fingers in mosquito bites. Gjelp me.

just my luck

i hate how i am genuinely at the best event ive been to in a while with like live music and stuff and yet i feel like SHIIITT. cramps n bullshit

DUDE. im so excited for my friend to come over. 🩷

I KEEP DRAWING. i cant stop. someone stop me from making SSSSLOP... i cant stop drawing i dont know what else to do to occupy my time. trying to wait until either someone texts me to hangout or call or sometjing. i wanna post all my art everyday but if i do it everyday and then stopndue to being busy or something then i Know im just not gonna draw for MONTHS🥲🥲🥲THATS WHAT HAPPENS EVERYSINGLE TIME. mainly due to burnout or not having ideas or being busy but still..

warning for mentions of eating disorders

i got ready for the day to get pizza with my dad🤤maybe stop by a store too or somethin

im trying to stop being a stupid faucking bulimic and actually eat normally knowing that.. hey boo.. you arent gonna get fat youre already skin and bones..hahaghhh freak

oh my god

okay so, for context: theres this guy ive had a crush on for like a few weeks now i think. nothings changed, i still like him a lot but it just feels so weird to like.. feel so strongly attracted towards someone after so long of not experiencing that for ANYONE?? like for the longest time due to that i thought i was aroace. but i guess not cus this man made me feel shit😭😭😭fuuucckk WHATEVER its ok.

i love him so much everytime we talk/call tho i feel so awkward too because I CAN BARELY FUCKING SPEAK like my face gets red and i feel like i can barely say anything. its genuinely humiliating im so bad at talkingggggbbh😣😣😣irs ok atleast he understands